owh, the Guilt!

Location: Comp room, How

Time: 1:52pm

Date: 29 June 2010

how does it feel like living a lie? staring into loved one's eyes and hurt them? fraudulent exterior can be a burdensome shell. a friend once told me that since I've chosen, don't think too much. But I'm not exactly the brightest in the bunch nor am I sane, to say the least...

for some reason, I find this oddly motivational...

http://www.gotfuturama.com/Multimedia/EpisodeSounds/3ACV20/10.mp3

i love me some Fry... hope to have a second chance in life too =(

even Futurama had one. Season 6 is out.. yay.

... anyways, i've been popping these bad boys like candies lately. anyone knows anything stronger than this? gona get used to it pretty soon. stupid sore throats.

Just one of those days.

time: 7:38pm
date: 16 June 2010
Location: Matheson Lib, Clayton.

too greedy, I am.

btw, that gym's banana's a rip off lor!! so bruised. ish... back to the blog...

I would really like to go back to the time when I first graduated from PGS...

I wasn' happy but not as confused and deflated as I am right now.

Daddy would be really diappointed if he knows. He raised a better daughter.

p/s: today's 'Drop em' day. I dropped my phone yet again at the steps of Howitt due to my potentially disasterous fall... then I dropped nano in the changing room... hand me a baby maybe I'll drop that too.

...

Location: How!5.

Time: 4:01am.

Date: 14 June 2010

BOOOOOOOM!

.IMPLODED.

Secondhand Serenade

Time: 4pm

Date: 9 June 2010

Location: Howitt Study Room

hmmm, I think I'm officially quitting secondhand serenade, makes me feel mushy in weird places... used to like them so much. ish. can't even be sincere enough to serenade people firsthand.

anyways, by this time tmr, I'll be done with this unit. I think I already know the outcome. Just wished I did it differently.

headache!

p/s: Through the looking glass she went, yet again, back to the place that she once had such an adventure. ah, the exciting adventures laced with such vibrant precious feelings. Unlike her, she's gona remember all that happened way back when. Wonderland is but a distant past. Underland, though familiar is but a land, for The Queen of Hearts had been slayed. Wonderland is Wonderland no more.

Rants *yawn*

Time: 12:28am.
Date: 8 June 2010
Location: Howitt Study Room.

Hmmmmm, why am I still here?!?!?!

*edited@4:41am*

-Still in Howitt Study Room-

I'll grieve for my Uluru Trip by joining the gym's classes.

I really wanna go to ULURU =~~(

...Choices and sacrifices...

Just a thought.

Time: 12:51pm

Date: 7 June 2010

Location: Basement of Menzies

coz Basement of Matheson's TOOOOO NOISY.

It may be argued that since we don’t know how to calculate the behavioural consequences of mass art for morality, we should refrain from bluffing about our knowledge of the supposed behavioural consequences of mass art and stop trying to invoke knowledge we do not have to justify our moral evaluations of it… Any group that claims to be able to predict the behavioural consequences of, for example, pornography, it might be said, is simply trying to advance its own sensitivities and moral preferences under the guise of a “theory”.(Carroll, 1998, p.301)

boy.. wonder who pissed Carroll off...

*edited@4.23pm*
-Still in Menzies basement-

that day what KK said something unintentionally that seemed like a lightning bolt to me.
"yea, u art students, 1000 words' nothing to you la...."

Words are not natural to me.. they don't come to me. I'm not eloquent. nor do I have rational/critical thoughts. Those are what defines an arts Student, I think. by having your voice (POV) in any issue, being a master of words and having the gift of the gap... or one of the above.

but not none of the above...

I'm at most, a fraud, who is hiding behind a weak facade, fooling everyone but me. Or maybe a mediocre actress, at best. starring in a indie-film that no one watches. Or maybe, the only one I'm fooling, is me.

I'm having Mid-Life crisis... really wanna have a glance at that Gypsy's crystal ball to see what path my plain self will lead me to. no longer feel like I'm overflowing with potential... like i did fresh out of high school. for the first time, I felt like time is running out.

ps/: I've gotta say, the basement's air conditioner is CRAZY. it was blowing out hot air just now till I took off my hoodie. then now it's blowing cool air... WTH?

Happy bday Sarah!

Time: 5:15am

Date: 4 June, 2010.

Location: Howitt Study Room.

Yesterday was muffin day, and I didn't have any.

I didn't have it because I don't deserve it.

It's a punishment I guess, quite a sad one I reckon.

So, in 12 hour's time, everything will be over. scratch that. SHOULD be over.

It's been on for too long, I'm exhausted....

and for some reasons I kinda miss the gym.

On a happier note, it's Sarah's birthday today =)

have a feeling in my gut that we won't get to celebrate bday this way for a long long long time.

yeap. makes me treasure them all the more.

So... Happy 22nd Bday =)

Hope we made it memorable by pre-celebrating it in Yee Mei's Conference Room without you, then celebrating in Jian Rong's room without you before celebrating in your room, with you this time =p

All the World's a Stage

Time: 1:06pm
Date: 3 June 2010
Location: Comp Lab, Basement of Menzies.

All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players;
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts,

... and it couldn't be truer.

I'm currently stuck at a stage/scene where I'm 'seeking the bubble of reputation', honor and all that crap... that requires me to play the part of a responsible student... But the essence of the actress behind the mask, wig, costume caught up.

come to think of it, Shakespeare's poem can be analysed from a very Marxist POV. like... everyone's the same, everyone's an actor on the same stage. everyone, none special, have to dance and prance on the stage, none can escape. like it or not, you have a role to play, the role that has been played countless times in the past. at the end of the day, you're just an actor, playing your part in a big production. you're just a dot in the big picture.

... yes, evidently my abstinence from Facebook did a number on me.

My mind plunged into the depths of philosophical theories, pondering the fundamental purpose of life.

... help...

'Spastic'

Location: Matheson Lib, Clayton.
Time: 8:34pm
Date: 1 June 2010.

owh yea, i forgot.

Today's the first day of winter.

it's a weirdly warm feeling when a friend said 'happy June' when he clearly indicated the month. Just because of that, might consider changing my name to June.

MUAHAHAH, SAY MY NAME BIATCHES!

anyways, just found out that a couple of games are banned in various countries for very VERY different reasons. for example, The Sims II was banned in some countries because with a cheat a 'blur' appears when a character is nude, thus suggesting nudity. hmm, it's not ACTUALLY showing NUDE characters, but merely SUGGESTING nudity. Not really sure to what extent it's true but that's what wiki said.

and among the whole list of reasons that GTA is considered dangerous to people, let alone kids, it's considered to be 'terrorist stimulating' coz one of 'em features the exact replica of NYC.

Just when you think that games like Mario can be safe for kids... Mario Party 8 on Wii by Nintendo and Mind Quiz by Ubisoft were banned in UK for the use of 'spastic' in the games, which according to my ever reliable wiki, it's really offensive in the local community.

so, there. Jing Yi, you are banned from UK.


*edit*

was listening to Step Up's OST and Piles ft. Akon's Hypnotized came up.

For the record *hehe, song, record, I'm farny!*, the original song is REALLLLLLLY dirty. if you don't quite remember, the song's chorus goes like this...

You got me so hypnotized
the way your body rolling round and round
That booty keep bumping
----- just bouncing up and down
You got me so hypnotized
the way your body rolling round and round
That booty keep bumping
----- just bouncing up and down

like seriously... black guys just love 'em women with meat!!

I was laughing away while listening to this song... lol... 

a boday must be round enough to roll right.........?

and bootay must be big enough to bump and bounce around right.........?

... I never felt more attractive and more accepted by pop culture =)

URRGGGH! MANNERS!!!

Location: Matthy Lib, Clayton.
Time: 4:17pm.
Date: 1 June, 2010.

I AM FURIOUS!!!

Maybe it's the MSTRKRFT i'm pumping into my cochlear (I swear I never once got the spelling of the band right), I feel so hyped!!

anyways, this barista in The Den! After I ordered and paid for a latter with one equal, I saw this banana and thought that would be a great snack. I asked the barista POLITELY if I can have that banana.

I SWEAR HE LITERALLY THREW me this REALLY CONDESCENDING look, stared at me for a second and replied in a REALLY SARCASTIC TONE: "can't you see I'm making coffee?"

I was totally taken aback! Shyt. This is how you repay ME? with YOUR ATTITUDE? BLARDY HELL. I didn't SAY that I want it IMMEDIATELY. you could have said something like, "hold on a minute, I'll get back to you" or "I'll be right up".

I say nothing. Was getting my computer and about to leave, he quickly open the display cupboard and got me that freaking banana. I looked at him. and said how much is it, trying not a make a big fuss outa it... HE THEN said "Just give me 1 dollar".

I totally felt like he said "just leave a buck and leave".

WHAT happened to please thank you?!

I work in retail too you know and I don't give OTHERS THAT kinda attitude. Regardless how shitty of a customer you are, I'll still say HI and THANK YOU, HAVE A NICE DAY.

think that barista from The Den should learn a thing or two.

... ISH! got me all worked up.