Well this is just too bad for you then

20.1.2014 • 6.11pm • Outside the office in Box Hill

So there's this new girl who's a friend's gf responded on this ad I posted on FB in regards to my relocation to Malaysia/ Singapore.

Yes, relocation. That just scared the shit out of me.. How did I even get here. Packing, purging belongings that defined me for the past 5 years and possibly starting anew in somewhere foreign.. To me at least.

It just dawned on me last Friday to find out WHERE exactly in Singapore do buses from Malaysia to Singapore stop!

Yet again I'm not a first time migrant/resident to a foreign land. I'm pretty sure I can cope, hopefully thrive and eventually call home.

So I've worked in quite a few places in these 5 years and my employers have been, on the whole, treated me really well so far. Among them are 2 businesses ran by a really caring couple. Coincidentally, my friend's gf is currently working in PO.

Some discussions here and there for her to transition to this new place of employment. She, for one, doesn't want to make my previous employer to get mad for her discussion, as anyone would. From that she told me that my previous employer was angry that they "took" me away before Christmas.

....

For some reason, this sits really uncomfortably with me.

They were really supportive when I left for greener pastures.

I left before December and helped them out in their BB during the week leading up to Christmas..

He doesn't have a say in my departure anyway. I was on casual employment, all the whole 3 years, being paid significantly lower than minimum wage. Albeit, I was grateful to have been employed by them and I did agree to the terms of employment.

If he wanted me to stay, he could have offered me full time employment which I did ask, to which he said no to. If at that time, not knowing how much I'll learn being in the new place of employment. If he were to hire me full time, I would have stayed.

I would say this is a blameless incident.

I did not do anything wrong by leaving as I was on casual employment. I did ask if he wanted to hire me full time, which he declined.

Yet, I still feel uncomfortable about them being angry at my current place of employment.

As time swoops by..

13 January 2013 • 9.27pm • sitting on the steps from Southern Cross Station

So it has been a long time since I've checked in with myself.. It really takes a while to ease myself into this state of mind.

I just got off the train from Box Hill, after work. It's certainly more enjoyable showing up in an office without having the bosses around =) 

Speaking of bosses.. It brings me back to the reason of writing, I tendered my first formal resignation letter (with signatures and what not!) along with my 2 weeks' notice. I was supposed to send an email to them on Friday but chickened out, plus thought they were coming back today.. Oh well..

I tendered my resignation with a heavy heart. The thought of moving back to Malaysia/embarking on a new adventure in Singapore, paralyses me.. I feel blood draining from my face whenever this thought crosses my mind.

Yes, the unmistakable fear in my system drains me.. I guess I'll just spend the rest of my life asking myself if I've made the right decision.. 

I sincerely hope that I've made the right decision =(