Bubble

2 Oct 2011 * 9.56pm * My Quarters in Mathy

so it's down to these 4 weeks. Brace yourself!!!

Hope that I can be with you at the finish line =)))

~~~~~

on a totally unrelated note, been looking at other people's facebook lately and really, it's not doing me much good. My preconscious is seriously messing with my conscious. Damn, 'em green demons.

The past will certainly catch up some times, just my unconscious rehashing the past, keeping it in check. The thing is, I love my bubble now. it's pretty damn cosy. But time and tide wait for no man...

unfortunately cliche but true =~(

my primitive ears...

time: 7.41pm

date: 25 may 2011

location: mathy lib.

it amazing that till now.. the clarity of my earphones (with Grey's soundtrack =)) and the vividness of HDTV still amaze me.

lol. I literally unplugged my earphones from my computer to check if the music is from my earphones or from the speakers of my lappy.

overcompensation.

Time: 2.07am

Date: 5 May 2011

Location: R's quarter in Marshyland.

It dawned upon me after listening to How Stuff Work's Stuff Mom Never Told You podcast (which I just stumbled upon recently and fell madly in love with) on male nurses that I realize why that dude was affectively displaying his overflowing of masculinity through the constant diversion of every simple conversations into indecent, borderline offensive sexual slur.

It happened in the last grad that I worked for Monash Club about 2 weeks ago. So there's this slightly matured (early 30s maybe) guy who's doing his masters in nursing upon the completion of Bachelors in paramedics in Monash that I met during that grad, aka my return to Monash Club in 2011 =)) Anyways, he was pretty fun at first as he understood the really lame innocent jokes I often throw... then he started getting a little weird by throwing jokes like getting high with a bong. That's still alright until he talked about turning me on and stuff... in a slightly less funny but more of a squint-eye in disbelief manner. Then he went on which some point I started to shut my mouth and smiled at him politely before cruising away to look busy doing something, somewhere else.

GOSH. I barely know you for 2 hours and don't think that we're at that juncture to talk about stuff like that... call me conservative but really... GOSH (imagine Napoleon Dynamite)... really?

I didn't put too much thought into it and till this evening it suddenly clicked. He could just be a boring ol'jerk who doesn't pay attention to what pours outa his traps OR there's a slight chance that he might be overcompensating for something... like... you know... studying nursing. Don't get me wrong, I do admire people with such aspiration to help others by being a nurse but maybe he's struggling with some image/identity issue that tagged along involuntarily with the course he chose?

if not, what would possess one to talk dirty dirty jokes to a near-stranger whom you just met moments ago, without being under the influence?

Prolific!!!

Prolific!!!! I AM PROLIFIC!!! THINK, WRITE!!! you CAN THINK, WRITE!!!

... positive self-affirmation can only bring me this far...

Quiet.

Date: 19 apr 2011

Time: 3.42pm

Location: Matheson.

hmmm, that odd calm swept over me again... for some reason...

haven't been back in Matheson, in a while... so much has changed yet not much. One thing's for sure, it's less boring.

Cooking awesome pork ribs (later stir-fried with XO sauce)

in the kitchen. where he belongs.

*evil grin* =)

owhh, I kinda signed us up for Mother's Day Classic on the 8th of May. I've never actually joined a marathon here before and this will be the second time after Ipoh International Run ages ago... which I did pretty badly. lol. Kinda regretting this coz he'll have legit reasons to ask me to go jogging with him!

Roger and I

Easter is rocking up soon... hmm... felt like going somewhere far... We'll see =)

... I remember.

Time: 5.02pm

Date: 10 April 2011

Location: Kitchen underneath my quarters, in Marshyland.

Same songs, awesome sun set, slightly chilly yet sunlit weather.. just the way I like it.

What happened? why do I always feel bored and tired lately?

really... I miss waking up and staring right into the blue skies with the lively clouds... the scent of the carpet maybe... or could be the clean toilet that has been washed moments ago.. ahh, I really miss the times I thought that life is so exciting! not knowing the what could happen in 2 days, in a weeks, or 2 month's time... the potential of such adventures!

The point is... I remember too much.. too much of the past feelings that I'm missing the adventure I'm in today. Listening to Anya Marina's SSSP suddenly brought shudders and that pleasantly refreshing breeze in June of 2009.. while I'm on the way to Uni. the freshly cut grass... the calm placid surface of lake, thinking ahh... This IS a new chapter.

... a new chapter that has been 3 years long.

What IS WRONG with me?

I should open my eyes and see the beauty around me... wake up... and smell the roses Jun, before it's too late... =)

Stretching the time.

Time: 1.07am

Date: 29 March 2011

Location: My Quarters in Marshyland~

Hmm, think I should stop perceiving time as a stretchable thing.

Well, should have learnt this seeing how Salvador Dali tried to do that and ended up in total melt down or a major explosion.

I should really stop stretching time. Always seem to be running out of them at the end of the day...

It's not like I have the cheat code in the Sims... dang. Would sure be neat to have something like that =)

Long Time Coming =)

Time: 8:17pm

Date: 28 March 2011.

Location: My Quater on Marshyland =)

Yeap, I've moved into a new place!

This is a long long overdue piece but, wasn't ready before to face them, Let alone put it in words.

So yea, it turns out, if I play my cards right, I'll get another chance! Third time's a charm =)

Seems like the world's helping me, just that I'm not helping myself much. Picking myself up yet again~ I'm just a lucky person.

Starting today, think i'm gona try to pen my incoherent thoughts down (as well as I could) in hopes of getting some sorta stability in this road I chose.

As vaguely as possible, been pretty happy lately with the way things are going =) Dreading to think about what's coming up... From this juncture, I'm glad I'm given this chance.

Get on your horse girl, and ride the shyt outa here!!

... It's been a month so far.

Time: 10.32pm

Date: 01/03/11

Location: My Quarter on Marshyland.

It's not because this house is exceptionally comfortable...

it's you that made it a home...

thanks =)

Deja-Vu

Time: 3:47pm

Date: 01/03/2011

Location: Menzies. S419

What happens when the cool breeze that you once find so refreshing suddenly feels a little too chilly.

What happens when the occasional coffee fragrance that tingled your senses oh so pleasantly once suddenly just felt plain.

What happens when you lose your little hop every 2 steps you take enroute to that gravel carpark on the way to class... does that mean that you have lost something... more?

I felt like I've overstayed. I don't belong here, now, in this way.

looking at the mirror, I saw the reflection of myself. How was I like 2 years ago? ...how was i like last year? Would Lizzie notice the difference? I bet she wouldn't. Gona find out on Thursday.

Just met Deb Zion. seemed like a nice lady. Things certainly changed a fair bit since last year...

*edited* 10.36pm

zomg... my tutor is horrabelllll~ i appreciate you being liberal and all but seriously... there's a need for order in a tutorial for real progressions.... aiyooo...

VodaFone.

Time: 4:57pm

Date: 29 Oct 2010,

Location: How!5.

Optus ===> Vodafone 59 cap.

Guess I'm really staying for good... =)

well, someone has to support them.

The Difference

Time: 3:46pm

Date: 26 Oct 2010

Location: R's Room.

*looking at Sarah's Grad pic*

R: eh, aren't these the same flowers?

Me: no dear, it's the geberas outside with the bear in the middle... can't you tell the diff?

R: Sure. I know that there's 3 types of flowers... Red, blue and yellow flowers...

Me: ...

Quiches & Keys Please.... ;p

Time: 3:03pm

Date: 25 October, 2010.

Location: Studyroom, Howitt.

Lunch by the Lake.

Awesome =)

20/10/2010

Time: 1:10pm

Date: 20 Oct 2010.

Location: Rare Book Collection, Matheson Library.

seem like a day that's worth mentioning.

which is good... coz I kinda made up my mind on a couple of things.

decided to go back on daddy's bday... and not skip out on CNY this year. Prolly be back in Melb on the 10 - 11 Feb 2010.

checked the DIAC website and think it's alright to get a TR. Will call and find out when I wanna ask about skill assessment.

and... I emailed the people in Malaysia Hall in Melbourne.

yes, I'm doing all the stuff that's not topping the priority list. awesome Jun. Good job.

sigh.

random.

Time: 4:08pm

Date: 13 Oct 2010

Location: Hargrave, Mon Uni.

Christian Boltanski:

you have the eyes of the grandmother, the ears of your great grandfather...

your face is filled with dead people... an archive of people who are dead.

... you are dead...

Vent!

Time: 12:27pm.

Location: Menzies, S407.

ZOMG, failure, harrow.

anyhooo, think i should get something done... right about... NOW. ISH!

unfaithfully yours.

Picnic by the lake.

Time: 7:41pm

Date: 12 Sept 2010

Location: How!6

wow, the lunch was amazing... hope i thanked you in a bigggg way =)

mmmmeh.

Time: 3:49pm

Date:7 Sept 2010

Location: Rare book collection, Matheson.

seriously, matheson is not big enough.

hmmm, just wanted to say... thing flew by too fast.

... and I blame the media.

First things first, I never knew/guessed that I would react the way I reacted. Really sorry if I freaked you out. You are definitely much more of a man than I expected? being the rock and all...

I don't know how I SHOULD react nor if I know how I want you to react. Just felt a little *mmmeh* now.. and yes, even I don't know what that means.

... too many things to do and no time to THINK and decipher the nonsensical blather in my mind.

Know I shouldn't but this got me thinking... does this mean as much to you, as it did to me? if yes, in what ways? can this be it that make or break the deal? we decided that 3 months from now is too long to foresee.

for what it's worth, glad that it was you.. I think.

Sch-mitten

Location: Matheson Lib, Uni.

Time: 4:32pm

Date: 2 Sept, 2010.

hmmm, the last few days flew by... were especially memorable...

you know what I realized last night...?

u're cold during the day and warm at night while i'm the opposite.

=)

Blue Skies...?

Location: Matheson Lib, Clayton

Time: 3:41pm.

Date: 01 Sept 2010.

ZOMGGGGGGG, it's september ald. Maybe it's the weather, maybe it's M.Club just now, maybe it my hormones... maybe it's just me. damn emo. ish!

so many things to be done yet so little time!!!! It's like every week there's something new to mess up my life...

GRRRRRRRRRR... can you PLEASE be more organized? ISHHHHHH... no use being angry at yourself when it's too late... BUCK UP!!!

Hmmm, thank gawd something else is working. please keep working. can't hurt to have something positive to lean on. hmmmmm, being such a girl. ish.

and yea.. happy Merdeka everyone.

didn't feel the Merdeka-ness over here. went to billboard for count down. dancing was fun. too bad U weren't there!

*edited* 5:15pm

like the sky, thanks for being here to walk with me through this little drizzle. SO MAN! lol.