What's Life After Love?

Location: Kopitiam near my house... Ipoh.

I just met up with a couple of secondary schoolmates Yong Ling, Jia Xian, Wai Tsin and Zhao Xuan... I haven't meet Liwei, Becky and Pig Liane for some time ald.

As I was driving back alone from Pengkalan (pasir puteh), it was drizzling and stuff, then there's this really romantic song.. something about "is he worth fighting for".

was HE worth fighting for?

Though he may not be THE ONE, he was ONE of them...

Better Loved than never Love before right?

Why am I still struggling to hold on this memory, this rotten but sweet memory of mine?

Is there actually Life after Love?


p/s: it feels harder than ever trying to maintain this relationship of ours... dude... u ppl need to take the initiative to do something also ler....

Born in the Year of the Dragon.

Although the surge of adrenaline rushing last-minute works is a kind of high but what if I'm way past 'last-minute'?

Location: Computer Lab, Level 5, MU, M'sia.

Yup, doing my stuff in the computer lab... I still want to get something out of my mind.

That day I chatted with Kai Jian, my same aged genius neighbour in Ipoh whom I'm not exactly close with. Yes, there's been many people that my parents compared me with.

There's this Kai Jian, Jian Wei (both neighbours) and my dear cousin Si Ning and some other parents' friends' children around them, and believe me, there are many of them out there.

There's this thing being a chinese borned in the year of dragon. In my case, borned in the year of 1988. Though my dad's born in the year of dragon, his mom (my grandma) sent him to school a year earlier, so he doesn't have to compete with other people in his year.

I still haven't figure out WHY the year of the dragon?! It's not like it'll guarantee your child's success right? It's not like the year of the dragon will make your kids any more prestige. Stop being so freaking superstitious already!

Anyways, I chatted with Kai Jian. Our conversation didn't last more than 30 minutes actually. I have a way of making people misunderstand my words. Like I didn't take the trouble to think of stuffs matching its context before letting the words flow out of me.

DUMB right?!

I immediately gave him the idea that I'm asking for his result to compare. Like WHY WOULD I DO THAT?! I'm 100x worse than you ok... omg. I didn't know I gave him that impression of being so kiasu! I was just trying to communicate with him ok?!

I can't say that him being in Singapore has got to him (Singapore, the origins of Kiasu'ism) because I hardly know him before he left for Singapore at the age of 15 (I remember coz we were supposed to take PMR and I was jealous of his fortunate escape).

Do you think that I'm Kiasu? my dad just said the other day that I've lost my 'fighting spirit'. Do I even have it in the first place? Coz I haven't actually notice...

About the result comparing thing, I never hold grudge! unless I messed up and you rubbed it in my face then I'll freaking hate you.

A Lady's Right to Slippers.

Location: B12.3A, Sunway, Malaysia.

Some people has had bad experiences with the eye shadows they tried and thought was pretty just before she pay for them but regretted ever since; some had bad luck with the list Mr. Right look-alikes before dating (but only to find out they ‘re Mr. NoNo at best).

For me, it’s just all about the slippers.

Yes. Those really annoyingly fragile (annoying for their frailness) flip flops. Those who have heard me complain for the past year will sure be surprise at the beginning of the slippers-turnover rate in my life.

The Longest Lasting Ones. Slippery and Worn Out as it May Seemed.

Unlike Lynnie who knew the advantages of having branded flip-flops, I'm just plain dumb and stubborn to not believing in any flip-flops that cost more than RM 30. I mean, with that amount of money, I can save ‘em pinks, blues and purples (in case you don't understand, they're the colours of Malaysia's currency) up and buy some really good sport shoes right?

Highly Water-resistant. Not So Cool Looking Though.

Oh, and yea, those bad experiences don’t only end with those sporty flip flops, they happen with every pair of slippers I HAVE/HAD. It’s like I have bad juju, or maybe it’s my feet, the way I wear the slippers, or maybe the road I walk on. And that’s why I always ended up wearing my mom’s slippers (which made her so ultimately proud because she thinks this proves that I agree with her sense of taste. I mean common!! And this is coming from a woman who thinks that I, TYJ, am into stuffed animals!).

This reminds me of that poor beanie that was neglected for centuries (and got dust bunnies intact to prove the ancient-ness of it) under the small table, under the radio. Common, no offense, but stuffed animals?! You think I like?!

Still Wearable But Worn Out. Another Loyal Soldier Down.

Anyways, back to slippers. My bro did complain about girls shopping about shoes ALL THE TIME but Mr-I-Wear-A-Pair-Of-Slippers-For-All-Occasion, you have to understand, my slippers (or rather, ladies’) slippers ARE fragile! And I’ve got prove to show it.

I Liked This Pair Very Much! Goes With Any and Everything for Me. Spoilt *sniff*

I’ve bought RM 20+ slippers, gone in a week at tops. Then these RM 16 (plus minus) slippers. GONE, in 2 days (can do a parody of gone in 60 seconds, a good movie by the way). Actually anything imported from Thailand (clothes, accessories and footwear) exceeding RM 30 is totally absurd to me. Yes, I’d be a low maintenance girlfriend if anyone’s interested.

The 2-Days Fling. Damn You. So What If You're Pink and Cool Looking?

Actually come to think of it, I hardly buy shoes, heels, pumps, or whatever you kids call nowadays, other than my parents-funded sport shoes, my shoes hardly exceeds RM 60. Only on two occasions recently that I can think of that I did, that was that gorgeously golden but uncomfortably high (which I left in my hometown for ‘break glass in case of emergency’ situations) and that really (imo) awesomely dark golden (yes, I like gold) stripped wedges that make me wanna sing ‘Gold Finger’ while feeling hot gliding on them.

My Wedges... *sparkle*

Oh, then I bought this less than 10 bucks but really cool but a little slippery slippers. I like the pink (duh) and what made it extremely cool was when the colours actually don’t match as a pair, unlike many of the boring matching coloured slippers in the market these days.

My Newest Flip-Flops Hunted Down With Comrade Sher Yen.

The down side was due to my inherited unshapely feet. Flat, wide at the front and weirdly unique looking toes (thanks dad, no offense) which made it unfit for the slippers. Everything else was perfect though. It’s like my dreams for a pair of perfect slippers come true~ Wonder how long will this last.

Mom as my witness (and other friends like Sze Vien who did went shoe-shopping with me), it is a tedious, very tedious job for me to be a pair of footwear that I’m totally satisfied with.

On a totally unrelated topic, mom and dad reached KLIA safely almost 8 hours ago and got back home at about 5 hours ago. I’m happy to hear that Pipi was thrilled to see them and ran away when mom put me on the line to talk to Him. Unfaithful little bastard you.

Since it’s my blog and I’m entitled to crap whatever crap that comes to my crappy mind, I learnt a lot from working with Minni. I’m fortunate enough to be even working with her that she showed me many very old features that I never knew exist in Microsoft Word. She even taught me how to screen shoot a movie~ I tried to use many ways but didn’t work out as I wanted it to be. Thanks to her, I finally took a shot of what I wanted to take a long long time ago~ Another wish successfully came true.

Harold and Kumar's Portrait (drawn by -obviously- idiots)

Oh, forgot to mention. I bought this really cool, brand new pepper spray a while back. It's my first pepper spray and figure that I'd mention it for fun. See, fun. Don't know if it's really operable, by brand new I actually meant un-use. Anyone wanna be my guinea pig for fun?

The Spray That Caught Malaysians' Attention A While Back and especially Former PM's.

P/s: oh yea, Cynthia fall sick again. Poor girl.

Sushi, Shopping, Suat Neo and Sze Vien: An Afternoon Well Spent.

Location: B12.3A, Sunway, Malaysia.

The day was 13 Sept 2007.

The night before that faithful night, everyone debated excited and opinionatedly through msn on bags, clothes and make-ups. Intense and rapid conversation flooded the screens while we talked. Gosh, felt like a girl again.

Vien was soooo Happy seeing my beloved darling Honey's name on my First Jusco Card

Living in this male dominated world has certainly affected me... (think of using this excuse to explain about my bad bad bad results I got to my parents. hehe)

Anyways, so after many smses exchanged between Sze Vien & Suat Neo, Sze Vien & I, Suat Neo & I, finally these 3 people came to a conclusion to dine in Sushi King in S.Pyramid. *sweat* It's hard to decide ok?

Vien and I. I was actually leaving to jump on the SLOW elevator. Vien's so busy camwhoring...

I handed in assignment, took my bad and marched to S.Pyramid at almost 1pm (the initial agreement was 12:30pm). Better late than never right? Just like the really dumb (come to think of it now) paper holder I bought for Neo for her birthday... So, (coz Sze Vien said she's lack of clothing) I bought her a t-shirt when I nearly took a worn t-shirt of mine and cut (re-design) it to fit her.

Neo roommate was there too, Ah Ting I think. We talked about the weather while drinking tea. LoL... More like we talked about anything lame and non-lame under the sun and laughed at absolutely everything. haha~ I do miss those days being in Kopitiam and Cabana.

Cool Earing~

Neo's as usual. Her cute old self. She even reconfirmed my SAM memories of her by accidentally leaving behind her Guess purse after all of use paid her and like Mastercard emphasized so much about, her expression, Priceless. I should have taken that down and put it on YouTube.

*Mental Note*
Get the Cam ready at all times.

Neo and Ting did prior plans to sing in RedBox and took my student ID for the student discount. For the record, I wish I'm as thin as Ting. The reception must be close to blind or business-minded cause WE looked nothing alike.

In RedBox. We looked like a buncha Gangster/prostitute in a pub filled with horny uncles.

So, I tagged along Sze Vien to shop in the lovely recently renovated S.Pyramid. Nothing much changed actually just an extra arcade next to the cinema. Like the old days, Neo became a bad influence to the naive and innocent me. (hehe...) Ting and Neo brought Vien and I to the arcade and played this O2Jam-like game with a drum.

SO FUN I tell you!!

Vien and I had doubts but soon was too absorbed in the game to complain. Imagine, 4 universities student playing these 'cute' games in the arcade occupied by few 12-15 year-old teenagers who probably ponteng-ed class. We felt so outa place yet SO meant to be there.

In the Arcade! That's Neo.

That Drum Game was Fun K?! Like Red from That's So 70's Show always said: "Wipe that smirk out of your face dammit, Or I kick my leg up you ass!!"

Haha, we eventually got really full and tired, to think that Jen Li and Jar Li invited us to go to Sushi King with them again was totally out of the question at that moment.

CamWhoring in Sinma or sth lidat.

I Need Sleep... like I do now...

So, it's Jun Signing off...

zzzzz...




p/s: Photos courtesy of Sze Vien~

I'm An Accident? Your Mistake.

Location: B12.3A

Slacking my days away is MY way of life. I'm not really good at sticking to a thing/chore for a long time. I enjoy reading, eating and watching English series throughout the day. Oh, like today, I watched Sex and The City from season 4 – season 6 in one gulp. Yup, it’s fun.

I’m known to be capable of juggling few things at the same time, so I figure I’ll blog while watching English series. Sex in the City kind of reminds me of Desperate Housewives that I watched so religiously for the past week.

Anyway, watching the lives of 4 successful ladies living their exciting lives in the Big Apple, noticing how they grow and stuff stirred up some unwanted memories.

OK, I had to admit, I was young and naïve and stupid for wanting to be the girls on the screens. The fact is I am a Malaysian Chinese, the virtues that are tattooed in my DNA taught me conservative stuffs like it’s forbidden to have Sex before marriage and if you noticed that I spelt ‘sex’ in capital letters, it’s because from where I’m standing, I don’t think I’ll be able to get it for the foreseeable future.

I recalled my first (till present) real life relationship that involved more than just holding hands, watching movies and stuff. The think is I didn’t know he was one until I know him. I have myself to blame for letting myself freefall into him. He asked me to ‘not love me too much’.

Love is uncountable. It’s not like I love you 90 units and love him 75 units. My god! I even freaking believed you when you said “I don’t think we are working out because of our skin colors”. If you were a MAN, whom I thought you were, you would be brave enough to crush me. I’m like all gal, I may look fragile, I’m uncrush-able.

The thing I regret most about is actually giving him underrated first kiss. I didn’t feel loved, not even the legendary ‘pop’. On the contrary, felt cheap and used because I’m an amateur in that field. I can’t help but think that if I were who/what I’ve become now, I’d screw him and not feel so bad about that stupid break-up.

The thing that hurt me most is that I heard from MY close friends that I AM AN ACCIDENT??!!!!

Wtf man! I know the whole thing went sour due to me being inexperience in this kinda thing. To think that I’d even shed a fucking tear for you and blamed myself for everything!!!

To add insult to injury, after the whole freaking issue about the RACE, I just had to see you with another girl from our hometown with my close friends! It’s like not enough that you insult me by lying about the freaking break-up, you just have to reassure me that I’m a total failure.

I just want you to know that you really scarred me for good. I can see another couple kiss to feel that disgusting kiss that you put me through that made me feel cheap. To think that you proposed that we take a step into third base is unbelievably shameless of you.

Though I know that you’ll have an inevitably bright future ahead of you and I truly hope that we will NEVER cross paths again in the future.