Location: Bro's Room, Ipoh.
Yesterday was totally different from the day before yesterday but technically, yesterday was the day before yesterday coz a new day for me is after 5 hours or more sleep that I have. Since I didn't sleep last night, I find the day before yesterday is actually yesterday and that yesterday was delightfully long...
buaHahha~ I CAN be crappishly Deep sometimes...
Anyhoo, what I did in a nutshell brought Ah Pi out for a walk, waxed the windshields of the cars, washed clothes (with the washing machine ofcoz) cooked dinner (for moi), watched plenty of tabloids from E! (that I love so so much), watched Nanny Diaries and that realllllllllly spine-chillingly scary Disney Princess Enchanted Tales Follow Your Dreams (2007) which I stupidly mistaken it for the long awaited Enchanted... Yes, I did slapped myself after I realized I was actually watching that Disney princesses crap.
Oh, I forgot to mention that mom and dad went to KL again for that motivational talk thing early in the morning and came home about 11.00pm. And it's one of those days I enjoy so much coz it's when mom and I totally clicked and got each other!
Mind you, this don't happen that often especially when it comes to the fashion and style department. What can I say, the generation/age gap's exceptionally evident in that section~
Anyways, as for dinner, I whipped up a bowl of simple Mac with eggs, lil' cocktail sausages, some veg blended with oyster sauce, a tinge of sesame oil and literally every and any spices that I manage to find in my house... Hey, I'm the one who's eating and I ain't complaining~
To top it all up, I had half a cup of red wine... Yes, i used a cup to measure it.
But after that I find it really icky coz I'm NOT a wine person, nor am I a fan of alcohol. So I was thinking, What The Heck, parents are not in, I'm not going anywhere for the evening, I decided to see where my limits were knowing really well that I'm not alcohol-tolerant. 
So I grabbed my Pelican out of the fridge and down it went... Still conscious. A little woozy, getting warmer but still capable of walking in a straight line. So I went digging in the cabinet for any other alcoholic beverages. Then I found a 6 pack of these.
This must be the 4th or 5th can of Carlsberg I've had so far in 19 years, so it's less monumental. I drank it and immediately felt really full. Like I had a large pizza & lasagna for supper... I tried to down it in one gulp but to find that I was too ambitious. At the end, I did managed to finish it though~
Then came the wave of nauseousness... haha... guess I just hit jackpot. But I kept it all in just to see how my body would react. I drank some chinese tea and *whoop* back to normal.
Needless to say, my attempt to be an alcoholic is a total waste of time. I didn't have the double vision thing and after all these, I still manage to walk straight AND blog. I guess the Chinese tea really helped a lot...
And, for the record, I really don't like the taste of alcohol! It's like licking metal and drinking fermented stuff. I like pelican though, coz they have all these interesting flavor and doesn't taste as bad as beer and wine (and one of it is PINK~) ... Beer and wine are just not for me. I can't imagine WHY people can be alcoholics. I still remember the first of the few times I went to a club, after having only 3 cans of Heineken, I feel a little hard to balance and manoeuvre on my only 3 inches high heels... I can't help but wonder, why would you, people out there, would wanna torture yourselves?!
Hmm, after much thought, think I should drink more... Just to get myself used to the whole alcohol thing. Any alcohol drinking buddies out there would like to have a drink with me?
Location: Bro's Bedroom, Ipoh.
First things first, no, today the sun will not rise from the north, so NO, I didn't just woke up at 6 in the morning.
Ok, lame dry humor aside, I just cannot shake the conversation mom, dad and I had yesterday (at dinner in Wei Choy around 8:30pm just after dad brought Ah Pi out for a walk... Wait, was I being a little too specific? hehe... Anyways,) mom and I have been pushing each others' buttons yesterday.
Since yesterday morning she kicked me outa bed at 10:30am,11:30am, 11:49am, 12:15pm and I finally woke up at 12:30pm... I am always grumpy & moody in the morning so when she poked fun of me, my body reacted by overproducing hormones that made me EXTRA emo.
Yes, I got all teared up and fought back by lashing out stuff like "It's been 2 weeks that I've been home and you keep talking about this same freaking issue EVERYDAY and for the first 100 times you said that, I tried very freaking hard to NOT bite back... But you keep going on and on and on with this and it's really getting on my nerves OK?! Now I don't only find it HURTFUL, I HAD to rebut to protect what little SELF CONFIDENCE I have left intact with me now... SO freaking SHUT UP already!!!"
Well, that's what I said... It's just that it's in Mandarin and less organized.
She was really taken aback to see me snapped just like that, but I don't regret saying that coz she didn't bring up the issue again for the rest of the day. BUT NO, she just had to find some ways to EXPRESS her ability to fight with her HIGHLY functional tongue of hers. Since I'm home, I'm the hamster/sitting duck sitting in a cage...
We argued about the things that she put in my room (it's HER temporary extented storeroom now) and the things that she put in bro's wardrobe (all the winter clothing and shit -- What sparked that? I merely suggested that she should put the winter clothing in her newly built closet and she told me the long grandmother story of bro not being in the house and the space is just alright for the unused winter clothing) Then some some titter-tatter, I avoided her for the rest of the day.... til dinner that is.
Dad's not out of town and that's pretty rare for us, so I made it a point to not eat with granny and godmom earlier on to have dinner with my immediate, closest family.
To make conversation, she told dad that if I hadn't promised to go for the function, I would have taken part in that rally 2 weeks ago... and Dad gave me that LOOK (that he's famous for when he despises, strongly disagrees, looks down, angry about something, etc) and asked: "what are you trying to prove? Are you trying to be like your Er Yi?"
-- long story about my er yi... --
I ducked and avoided the whole topic and pretended that I was SOOO into that football match (Liverpool vs New Castle United which Liverpool won 3-0) and didn't hear him say anything. He said and I quote...
"Don't do stupid stuff la, we spend so much money on you for you to go to Monash to study..."
That eager beaver sitting opposite me JUST CAN'T WAIT to give me her 50 cents...
"Yealor, yealor. What if you got caught? What would mommy and daddy do? You're just 19 ok?"
... All I heard was *mummbbleee* *fummbleeee*... Ok, I have to admit, I was a little childish using that description, but why did I keep quiet while they desperately tried to share with me their oh-so-very-koreck-thoughts?
The thing about my family is that, there are some things that CAN & CANNOT be spoken out loud cause they will use their "I've been in the world for more than *how-many-years*" and "I have eaten salt more that you have eaten rice...". No, I do not doubt their experiences and judgments but they won't understand what is it like to WANT to do something like what I wanted to do... It's frown upon... and it is always a potentially fatal spark for any ferocious arguments, at anytime in my family.
She came up with three really genius principles which no doubt that she had came up on the spot saying...
"there are 3 ways to support something 1st being financially, 2nd being mentally and 3rd being action (coz "physically" slipped her mind I presume) AND all we should never never choose is taking action... It's not for US..."
I wanted so desperately to ask, what do you mean by US? Do you mean OUR family? Do you mean the CHINESE community from around here? Or you're just referring to those who are 'dumb' (can't speak)? WHY should we keep quiet IF we feel strongly about something?
Instead, I know better but I replied: "typical Chinese mentality".
(and that totally fired dad up...)
WHY didn't I ask all these question??
Coz I'm born and raised in this family. Coz I know that we're in a public place and IF I talk back, ALLLLL the drama that you can find on TVB will be presented live... Coz I'm brought up in a traditionally Urban Chinese family.
too complicated?
According to my parents, WE, as children, no longer live OUR lives anymore. WE live for our parents and ancestors. WE live FOR our "kind"... Just like it's frown upon to marry non-Chinese like Indians and Malays BUT those Mat Sallehs are totally accepted here. If we committed suicide or wasn't careful with our behavior (say, had sex before marriage) we'll not only put ourselves to shame, we'll drag along a WHOLE BIG BUNCHA BAGGAGE down with us... We'll be considered as irresponsible to our parents, their parents and their parents' parents...
Like who started this crap anyways? WHY do we need to trouble ourselves by considering the imaginary chain binding you from doing what your heart YEARNS to do and strongly know that it's correct to begin with? Is this social system having positive influences on fields other than morality and cognitive rationality? More importantly, is this posing a threat (other than being nurtured with STRONG self censorship) to freedom of speech, freedom of happiness and freedom of EXPRESSION? Maybe they say is true, social norms CAN change people's rationality...
Would the future of mankind be any better IF people start to live for THEMSELVES?
Location: B12.3a, Sunway.
Recently I have trouble sleeping at night. Toss and turn all night I know that I'm so physically tired but mentally awake. I'm sure many of you out there faced this kinda situation before right?
The thing is that I actually brought it upon myself. I sleep too much during the day and that's probably not so healthy. If mom's reading this she'll be saying something like 'tsk tsk, see, I told you so'.
Having a brother around the house kinda explored me to a lot of teenage stuff. Not to say that I was too chicken to play computer without my parents' approval in the middle of the night til the break of dawn, bro taught me all these stuff among others... So technically, I was really innocent.. Innocent you know...
Anyhoo, I like to fall asleep in a noisy environment. It's weird I know. I think I understand why I always fall asleep in class since my primary school days. It's like automatically when the teachers started talking, I feel the surge of dizziness, then before i know it, my eyelids feel like a thousand pounds and my ears will close it's gap...
Maybe that's why I like to fall asleep infront on the very very cozy couch in front of the tv at home. Normally when my parents are not in or when I watch tv in the middle of the night when everyone's asleep, I always tune in to Channel V or mtv coz I like vibrations of the sound and I don't like to wake up in a quiet environment.
Here in Sunway, when Cynthia's not in, I'll start filling up my playlist with whatever tv series I have on my pc and start playing till I fall asleep.
my prob is, is this even healthy?
Coz i heard from somewhere that people need to rest in a quiet and dark environment to improve their quality of sleep. The thing is I don't have problem falling asleep at anytime of the day but will feel totally guilty after waking up to notice all the precious time I've slept away. Anyways, I'll try to stick to my 12am bedtime for the sake of my exams.
On the flip side, I'm not so health conscious to begin with. I'm doing tons of other unhealthy stuff already, one more won't hurt.
Actually, unlike in Ipoh, I have no real motivation in waking up early in the morning. At home, I'll wake up at 8 something to bring Pipi out for a spin to enjoy the beauty of nature while they are still fresh~
I'm talking crap. and it's only 9 something at night. Darn... With xsocam still down, I'm forced to study... STUDY... haiz...
Anyhow, seeing that my ex-156 roommates were all affected by the curly craze, I've been deciding i f I should curl my hair since 2005 (PGS was really strict on this matter, no curls nor re-bonding allowed). I kinda fell asleep last night unaware that my hair's still in a bun, which is how I usually keep it at home. So woke up with a great surprise~
Yes, still in my PJs. Just woke up.
So, what do u think?
Location: B12.3a, Sunway.
And So, Innocence is Back baby~~
It has been so long since I've been able to use this program for some time now!
Boy it brings back memories... I miss the SJ 156 people. I miss Albert and the gang. Sweet time spent in Starbucks in the wee hours of the morning.
p/s: these pictures are for illustration purposes only. I know I suck at it. oh, people who are interested in playing online scrabble please go to Internet Scrabble Club and follow the instruction there.
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