Secondhand Serenade

Time: 4pm

Date: 9 June 2010

Location: Howitt Study Room

hmmm, I think I'm officially quitting secondhand serenade, makes me feel mushy in weird places... used to like them so much. ish. can't even be sincere enough to serenade people firsthand.

anyways, by this time tmr, I'll be done with this unit. I think I already know the outcome. Just wished I did it differently.

headache!

p/s: Through the looking glass she went, yet again, back to the place that she once had such an adventure. ah, the exciting adventures laced with such vibrant precious feelings. Unlike her, she's gona remember all that happened way back when. Wonderland is but a distant past. Underland, though familiar is but a land, for The Queen of Hearts had been slayed. Wonderland is Wonderland no more.

Rants *yawn*

Time: 12:28am.
Date: 8 June 2010
Location: Howitt Study Room.

Hmmmmm, why am I still here?!?!?!

*edited@4:41am*

-Still in Howitt Study Room-

I'll grieve for my Uluru Trip by joining the gym's classes.

I really wanna go to ULURU =~~(

...Choices and sacrifices...

Just a thought.

Time: 12:51pm

Date: 7 June 2010

Location: Basement of Menzies

coz Basement of Matheson's TOOOOO NOISY.

It may be argued that since we don’t know how to calculate the behavioural consequences of mass art for morality, we should refrain from bluffing about our knowledge of the supposed behavioural consequences of mass art and stop trying to invoke knowledge we do not have to justify our moral evaluations of it… Any group that claims to be able to predict the behavioural consequences of, for example, pornography, it might be said, is simply trying to advance its own sensitivities and moral preferences under the guise of a “theory”.(Carroll, 1998, p.301)

boy.. wonder who pissed Carroll off...

*edited@4.23pm*
-Still in Menzies basement-

that day what KK said something unintentionally that seemed like a lightning bolt to me.
"yea, u art students, 1000 words' nothing to you la...."

Words are not natural to me.. they don't come to me. I'm not eloquent. nor do I have rational/critical thoughts. Those are what defines an arts Student, I think. by having your voice (POV) in any issue, being a master of words and having the gift of the gap... or one of the above.

but not none of the above...

I'm at most, a fraud, who is hiding behind a weak facade, fooling everyone but me. Or maybe a mediocre actress, at best. starring in a indie-film that no one watches. Or maybe, the only one I'm fooling, is me.

I'm having Mid-Life crisis... really wanna have a glance at that Gypsy's crystal ball to see what path my plain self will lead me to. no longer feel like I'm overflowing with potential... like i did fresh out of high school. for the first time, I felt like time is running out.

ps/: I've gotta say, the basement's air conditioner is CRAZY. it was blowing out hot air just now till I took off my hoodie. then now it's blowing cool air... WTH?

Happy bday Sarah!

Time: 5:15am

Date: 4 June, 2010.

Location: Howitt Study Room.

Yesterday was muffin day, and I didn't have any.

I didn't have it because I don't deserve it.

It's a punishment I guess, quite a sad one I reckon.

So, in 12 hour's time, everything will be over. scratch that. SHOULD be over.

It's been on for too long, I'm exhausted....

and for some reasons I kinda miss the gym.

On a happier note, it's Sarah's birthday today =)

have a feeling in my gut that we won't get to celebrate bday this way for a long long long time.

yeap. makes me treasure them all the more.

So... Happy 22nd Bday =)

Hope we made it memorable by pre-celebrating it in Yee Mei's Conference Room without you, then celebrating in Jian Rong's room without you before celebrating in your room, with you this time =p

All the World's a Stage

Time: 1:06pm
Date: 3 June 2010
Location: Comp Lab, Basement of Menzies.

All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players;
They have their exits and their entrances;
And one man in his time plays many parts,

... and it couldn't be truer.

I'm currently stuck at a stage/scene where I'm 'seeking the bubble of reputation', honor and all that crap... that requires me to play the part of a responsible student... But the essence of the actress behind the mask, wig, costume caught up.

come to think of it, Shakespeare's poem can be analysed from a very Marxist POV. like... everyone's the same, everyone's an actor on the same stage. everyone, none special, have to dance and prance on the stage, none can escape. like it or not, you have a role to play, the role that has been played countless times in the past. at the end of the day, you're just an actor, playing your part in a big production. you're just a dot in the big picture.

... yes, evidently my abstinence from Facebook did a number on me.

My mind plunged into the depths of philosophical theories, pondering the fundamental purpose of life.

... help...

'Spastic'

Location: Matheson Lib, Clayton.
Time: 8:34pm
Date: 1 June 2010.

owh yea, i forgot.

Today's the first day of winter.

it's a weirdly warm feeling when a friend said 'happy June' when he clearly indicated the month. Just because of that, might consider changing my name to June.

MUAHAHAH, SAY MY NAME BIATCHES!

anyways, just found out that a couple of games are banned in various countries for very VERY different reasons. for example, The Sims II was banned in some countries because with a cheat a 'blur' appears when a character is nude, thus suggesting nudity. hmm, it's not ACTUALLY showing NUDE characters, but merely SUGGESTING nudity. Not really sure to what extent it's true but that's what wiki said.

and among the whole list of reasons that GTA is considered dangerous to people, let alone kids, it's considered to be 'terrorist stimulating' coz one of 'em features the exact replica of NYC.

Just when you think that games like Mario can be safe for kids... Mario Party 8 on Wii by Nintendo and Mind Quiz by Ubisoft were banned in UK for the use of 'spastic' in the games, which according to my ever reliable wiki, it's really offensive in the local community.

so, there. Jing Yi, you are banned from UK.


*edit*

was listening to Step Up's OST and Piles ft. Akon's Hypnotized came up.

For the record *hehe, song, record, I'm farny!*, the original song is REALLLLLLLY dirty. if you don't quite remember, the song's chorus goes like this...

You got me so hypnotized
the way your body rolling round and round
That booty keep bumping
----- just bouncing up and down
You got me so hypnotized
the way your body rolling round and round
That booty keep bumping
----- just bouncing up and down

like seriously... black guys just love 'em women with meat!!

I was laughing away while listening to this song... lol... 

a boday must be round enough to roll right.........?

and bootay must be big enough to bump and bounce around right.........?

... I never felt more attractive and more accepted by pop culture =)

URRGGGH! MANNERS!!!

Location: Matthy Lib, Clayton.
Time: 4:17pm.
Date: 1 June, 2010.

I AM FURIOUS!!!

Maybe it's the MSTRKRFT i'm pumping into my cochlear (I swear I never once got the spelling of the band right), I feel so hyped!!

anyways, this barista in The Den! After I ordered and paid for a latter with one equal, I saw this banana and thought that would be a great snack. I asked the barista POLITELY if I can have that banana.

I SWEAR HE LITERALLY THREW me this REALLY CONDESCENDING look, stared at me for a second and replied in a REALLY SARCASTIC TONE: "can't you see I'm making coffee?"

I was totally taken aback! Shyt. This is how you repay ME? with YOUR ATTITUDE? BLARDY HELL. I didn't SAY that I want it IMMEDIATELY. you could have said something like, "hold on a minute, I'll get back to you" or "I'll be right up".

I say nothing. Was getting my computer and about to leave, he quickly open the display cupboard and got me that freaking banana. I looked at him. and said how much is it, trying not a make a big fuss outa it... HE THEN said "Just give me 1 dollar".

I totally felt like he said "just leave a buck and leave".

WHAT happened to please thank you?!

I work in retail too you know and I don't give OTHERS THAT kinda attitude. Regardless how shitty of a customer you are, I'll still say HI and THANK YOU, HAVE A NICE DAY.

think that barista from The Den should learn a thing or two.

... ISH! got me all worked up.

Pathetic!

Time: 12:48am

Date: 25 May 2010.

Location: still in the study room...

Note to Self:

OOI, SNAP OUT OF IT!!!

Barley Day today =D

Time: 8:57pm

Date: 24 May 2010

Location: Howitt's Study Room.

URGGGHHHH, i just cannot talk to him!!!

as much as i want to, even a smile from afar is a little too much for me. being in this state is really frustrating... yet again, you don't need much to get me all worked up.

anyways, i was looking at the older posts... think i need to remind myself of the sense of desperation... the choice that i made.

... so, Live your choice woman!!

plus, really getting paranoid... well, not so much of being paranoid but more of having pure vacant moments that my brain will just stay afloat amongst the crap that filled my head and my fingers will automatically type facebook and start doing nothing there.

yes, idle minds are dangerous... dangerously good in procrastinating that is!

owh and btw, this won the crowd over =)

also... just thought it's worth mentioning...

yay, Ipoh IS Malaysia's very own Springfield!! wonder who's Homer in that narrative... and for the record, i believe that it's a little OTT to be sensationalizing this piece of news by comparing the in appropriate management of radioactive waste to Chernobyl incident.. sheeeesh. journalists.

Teasers!!

Time: 11.21am

Date: 19 May 2010

Location: Matheson, Clayton

I was thinking... did I not deserve your respect back then?

anwyays, pretty?

*Must be some Clovers in the atmosphere*

pick one!!!

Hope I didn't infringe any copyright here... =p

Chocolate.

Time: 12.50pm

Date: 18 May 2010

Location: How!5, Clayton

you're like a choc that I can't get over. I tried... but on the inside, I don't really want kick you off completely. Really do miss you though, and that didn't do any good to my. shmucks!!!

Ignorant vs Unaware.

Time: 1:46pm
Date: 12 May 2010
Location: Hargrave Lib, Clayton.



shyt, after a year-ish, this is my first time stepping foot in this library. like upstairs. it's bigger than I thought. lol. anyways, been thinking a lot about autonomy, exploitation and crap... I think i know why I'm sooooooo miserable.



like what sarah said, I want too much. damn those WANTS. the thing is... the things I want cannot be bought. well, I wouldn't mind a nice car and a gazillion dollars in the account.



I don't know why mom calling me ignorant about the whole blood bank issue, is stuck in my head. Well, firstly mom's thesaurus is rather limited and she's not a verbally sensitive as I am... I read too much into stuff? damn saussure!



she called me ignorant but really she meant "why are u unaware about the issue". Hey, it's not like our everyday conversation would just involve the topic regarding blood bank in Malaysia right? how would i know that after using the blood in the blood bank, the patient's family members/friends will have to 'return' the blood or pay a certain amount of money?



So technically the blood bank's monetize blood that unknowing public donate voluntarily? if so, where do they get the fundings? if it's from the government, won't the government ask something in return, eg blood? if there's already a supply of blood to government hospital, do the patients still need to pay a fee to the blood banks, or the hospitals?

ironies of life.

Time: 4:14am.
Date: 12 May 2010
Location: Comp Room, HH.

this is pretty sad.

context: talking about the number of organ donations in various countries who adopted a 'presumed consent' (or opt out) system of organ donation after death. Both Spain and Sweden adopted the same policies but "It has been suggested that one of the reasons Spain's donation rate is so good is a result of the higher numbers of healthy people killed in road accidents..."

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/health/6902519.stm

Even though Spain adopted a "soft" system as compared to Austria's, the system was highly successful for the Spaniards, because of road accidents. cruel as it may sound, maybe it's not a bad idea for malaysia to promote the rempit culture for the betterment of fellow malaysians in need?

Baby it's Cold Outside.

Time: 3:17am
Date: 12 May 2010
Location: Computer Lab, HH.

yea, read in the news that it's gona be unusually cold this morning. what's more, Fred ask me to bring the things there early for Free Breakfast by 9am.

owh, about the title, it's this documentary i'm watching. talking about how people manipulate and politicized fear through media. Think I'mma use that for my essay.

anyways, UNCANNY! mom was telling me about her adapter being burnt and stuff yesterday and puff, my problem-full toshiba's adapter thingy blew. shyt. but it's been with me through thick and thin. guess it's not THAT bad. SIENZZZ!! I just started season 5... Towelie keeps getting HIGH! I know I shouldn't but I started with season 12 and working backwards. I still prefer Mr. Garrison when he's MR. Garrison.

lol. Maybe it's a sign... it's like the big dude above kicking me in the arse, to get me working.

WORK woman, WORK!


p/s: finds Amanda Palmer's music intriguing, her eyebrows even more. and OWH.MY.GAWD. Bo Burnham's sooooo cute =p yup, i'm into that type now. lol.


pp/s: I know given one year ago I'd rather be caught dead than caught saying this but South Park is brilliant social critique!!! there are some hit and misses but really... the other day I was watching this episode about old people driving that is detrimental to road safety. Well, more like a threat. anyways, here's some physical evidence of that happening. creepy!!

Wonderful...

Date: 6 May 2010
Time: 1:10pm.
Location: basement com lab, Menzies.

today's a wonderful day... up till now at least.

woken up by the gentle drizzle outside. not too cold but just chilled enough. Jacky woke up in time for table duty, Kuhen was there too. found out that HQ's highly acidic coffee goes really well with the blueberry muffin (instead of having double choc chip for a change - yes, making it a ritual now. every tuesday. Muffin for lunch.) Got tomorrow off, yay! but need to go to BusyBee on Sat and Sun instead. but getting Monday off, yay! but have like 3 assignments due next week... boo...

well, just the ups and downs in life. Really riding (and enjoying the ups now~) Feel really high now for no reason... hafta cook tonight.. inviting the usuals =)

p/s: on a totally unrelated note, stumble upon this article. haha.. Go Ipoh!!!